for the 1st time in my life i think ,

for the 1st time in my life i think , i feel real fear similar to feeling i got when i held a tiny rock while standing beside the great pyramid similar to the feeling i got when i held my 1st quantum mechanics book when i was 11 right now , i feel it again 100 times bigger , wanna feel it to ?? study advanced mathematics for 5 years then start reading a book about epigenetics