\how can i gain full control of my memories that

\how can i gain full control of my memories that i shared with u when i can’t kick u out of it ? \and how i can gain a proof of your existence if u only showed me illusion ? \and how can i differentiate between illusion and reality when u show me proof ? \i know u talk but i can’t hear u \i know u sparkle but i can’t c u \i just need a bridge \connects me to u \to my brain \my real one